so why don´t we go somewhere only we know

This is the thing: I´ve been sad. I watched this movie... like five minutes and started to cry. All I can say is "oh great i´m depressed". What i cannot tell is where does this come from.
Like i do it all the time, I ran away from people. I don´t have anything to say and end up pissed because the window is closed or because the door is open.
I´m writing again, don´t wanna sleep, cannot do it. I´ve got this urge to say, to explode and I simply stay watching my hair or the glass of my window.
Maybe it´s another year passing me by. This horrible feeling of not being able to do anything with these children´s minds. Not being able to do anything with my mind. My my my.
And the song keeps going and going and stopping and starting all over again and my eyes hurt and i wish for so many things to happen but don´t do shit. I stare. I stare. I stare: i sssssstaaaaaare.
Ich will etwas, etwa, was will ich? Ich weiss es nicht. Was tunst du? Wo bist du? Nirgendwo. Du bist nicht.
talk about somewhere only we know